It’s Time to Come Out of my Closet

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This week I joked about having a works Christmas party with Max; we’d get smashed on apple juice, eat our body weight in carrot sticks, embarrass ourselves on the dance floor to “The Wheels on The Bus”, say something regretful to the boss (Max) and try to kiss my colleague (Anna), which let’s face it is just another day in the office. On Tuesday night Anna informed me that the next morning I would be flying to Sydney to have dinner with all the lovely ladies from the agency I’m fortunate enough to be with. I have never flown somewhere for dinner before, I sometimes struggle to muster the energy to make it to the takeaway at the end of our road.

Forget about blogging these are some very impressive people that exude confidence and brilliance in equal measures.  I find it a little daunting going from being Dad Matt who spends his days marching to the beat of Max’s drum to Matt Matt who isn’t indulged as often as he should be but can still remember how to have a good time if necessary. What will I say? Which poor sod will have to sit next to me and get Max stories with their dinner? Will Mrs Woog devour me in one gulp or two? These are the sort of questions and doubts that I make a habit of burdening myself with.

I took my place at the dinner table, a guy amongst gals or a thorn in a bed of roses as someone cruelly dubbed me. Margaritas and wonderful company are the perfect antidote to nerves and self doubt and I had a brilliant night full of laughter and chit chat. Whenever I sit down with anyone from this tight knit group of people I learn from them. Sometimes I’ll glean a blogging tip but usually it’s just about observing them and seeing people who exude confidence, are comfortable in their skin and keep their glasses topped at half full. Blogging is a lonely business and doing it with the support of others is priceless.

RGM dinner on Hayman Island

My head was full of thoughts again on the way home but this time it was full of ideas, excitement and inspiration. I felt like I had devoured a bookshelf full of self help manuals, really, really good ones. I was forced to concede that my life has been unbalanced for some time now and it’s not working for me, for three years it’s all been about Max and now I’m ready to rediscover myself. I’ll still be aiming for Dad of the Year but I also want to be Husband of the Year and Me of the Year, because I’m greedy like that.

The blog has also reflected that, it’s been very Max and Dad focused and I want to breathe some new energy into it (and me), give the little guy a break and start revealing a bit more of who I am and what I love. It won’t be too dramatic, it’ll have the same style of writing, still offering up a parent anecdote or two, because that is a big part of who I am but not suppressing all the other bits that get me excited. I’m hoping a happy blogger who wants to come out of his closet will make for good reading.

Merry Christmas everybody.

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  • FoxInFlats

    I’m glad I sat next to you. You are awesome. And I’m looking forward to seeing what comes out of that closet. xA

    • daddownunder

      Not too much hopefully Foxy ; )

  • Neets

    Sounds like an inspiring night Matt. Looking forward to finding out more about what you love in 2014! Hope you & your family have a fabulous Chrissy & New Year.

    • daddownunder

      You too Neets, thanks for coming along, love having your bright and cheerful nature around. Maybe 2014 we meet up at some point?

      • Neets

        Sounds like a great plan Matt.

  • Christina @ Hair Romance

    So great to see you Matt. Props to Anna for getting you up to Sydney. Here’s to an amazing new year x

    • daddownunder

      Props to her indeed and great to see you too – dinner in Melbs?

  • Lorraine

    Well aren’t you the inspiration! Can’t wait to see what 2014 holds in store for you and DDU.

    • daddownunder

      2013 provided some notable highlights, hopefully there’s lots more to come next year.

  • Mrs Woog

    You are adorable! I loved out chat and I know your best is yet to come. Go get em tiger. Xx

    • daddownunder

      Rarrrrr! (tiger roar)

  • Kathy

    Good on you Matt – you are in good company and I’m sure are great company. Looking forward to the Dad plus more Matt Version in 2014.

    • daddownunder

      Thanks Kathy, thanks for coming along and sharing – Merry Christmas

  • Nikki | Styling You

    Go for it Matt … it’s no different from us as mums clawing back a bit of ourselves. I think as parents we do a better job if we’re able to prioritise us a little too!

    • daddownunder

      I think you’re right Nikki, its been too much of the same thing for too long, things need a bit more balance.

  • Wendy

    Sounds great Matt :) Happy Xmas to you and yours :)

  • Richard Farrar

    You’re doing just fine, Matt. We all need some inspiring company in order to keep us moving forward and upward.and the time that we spend away from our children makes the time with them all the more precious. I hope that you Anna and Max have a wonderful Christmas and Hogmanay.

  • Tessa White

    That sounds like a grand plan.. balance is pretty key to happiness and as long as you are doing what FEELS right for you it will always BE right for you x

  • Reen

    Merry Christmas, Matt, Anna and Max! I’m sure whatever you write about, Matt, will be met with the same enthusiasm from your readers as before. All the best for 2014 and the new direction that your blog is heading in.

  • Cam

    I think blog community as you would know, can be a real tight community. So I think regardless of how or what you write about, your readers will still come back. Plus changing it up will attract new one’s 😉

    Merry Christmas to you, Max and Anna.